I am on Flickr since 2007 I am following 2000 people and I have 1800 followers , I am blocking over 1500 people ,,for no fault of theirs they have fetish for porn..and I cannot add them I mean I understand artistic nudes but hardcore porn is beyond me ,, than I block those who add me with fake names and no profile photo ..I have had some great friends very old friends and they got out of hand using me as a punching bag because of their fucked dried up sex lives or whatever megalomania I blocked them too..
There was a person a typical Bengali shooting landscapes a part poet and he got upset seeing Naga cocks on my Kumbh pictures and got nasty in his comments I dumped him too.. I mean I dont understand when you add me you take me with the baggage of my quirks idiosyncrasies ,,I dont demolish a persons character because of the pictures he shoots ,,you want to see some of my images but are not happy with the the cultural ritualistic bloodletting scenes I shoot beats me ,, Fuck dont you read a persons profile glance his photostream.. before adding him and I am saying this to a Flickr member ,,
A lot of people add me first I check the profile ,it maybe very tame flowers or a single picture and his favorites will be a rhapsody of genitalia I block him..I block all transgender , hijras others not that I have any issue with them most of the stuff on their timelines is gross even as nudes ,, I am not interested in you silicon boobs or your negligee pictures ,,and you going down on anything with two legs or four legs ,,
I am not interested in your religious profile ,,it hardly bothers me ,, but dont dump it on me I am not interested ,, and initially I took a lot of rap for my Shia pictures , I was abused called foul names but than I am happy being a Shia I am not interested in your pristine Islam that kills more Muslims than God kills accidentally or naturally.
This is my soliloquy it is not addressed to you..its my voice trying to come out from a trapped moment in time ,,
I have an average of 35000 views everyday on my images and despite the fact that the biggest views once upon a time were on my Hijra pictures , the crossdressers and the Mumbai Pride ,, I locked it all up threw the key away. Now I shoot all this as a documentary not for titillation or voyeuristic reasons ,,There are people at Flickr who add me certainly not for my beggar pictures or my shit garbage .. and I add them back though I dont shoot will never shoot what they shoot ..
I type with one finger of a permanently damaged hand but I make it a point to scroll those on my contact list.. friends only at Flickr I favorite pictures I comment on pictures ,,
Here I hope you all will forgive me I have a very few people whom I know thoroughly well on my Facebook Feed I cant go through 2000 peoples list and out of the 2000 very few are photographers ,,and I am here as a photographer ..but a photographer who is a hardcore blogger ,,and my text book of photography is my Flickr feed .. I learn get inspired from the diverse works of my friends ,, I have some great photographer friends .. some old dear friends from Buzznet ,, but two people I really am influenced by at Flickr are Eric Parker we connected because of my Chor Bazar pictures in 2007 and the most stylish impeccable street photographer Akbar Simonse from Amsterdam .
I mean I would kill myself if I had to shoot the camera club kind of shit that they preachify through their brochures and newsletters I dont want to be another KG Maheshwari ,, I want my own intrinsic style and pictorial thought ,,I am changing with the times ,, I started shooting stills as moving pictures storyboard because I was inspired by this Chinese guy shooting 500 tea drinkers and he continues ..
I am not a photography teacher I shoot as I talk as I breathe .. it all comes from inside and as I am a loner in the crowd I taught my grandkids not to shoot photography like other photographers shoot no Fuck F Stops no text book,.. I taught them the only thing right hold the camera like you hold a slippery fish in your hand pictures will take care of themselves and than I realized the only granddaughter I never taught anything Zinnia Fatima 3 year old can shoot pictures as good as Nerjis and Marziya.
And I am blogging this at Facebook.. thoughts coming out from a clockwork orange .. If I stop photography , stop shooting pictures I will be stilll producing pictures and thoughts by tweaking images from my Flickr archives 350000 of mindless thoughts posing as visuals ,, And I almost puke every morning when I see the DNA paper and few other papers .. I need not say anything sometimes the pictures in the papers cant even speak a single word..
We in all humility have been influenced by the pictures we saw in newspapers now it is full of crap.. barring a few ..and I demystified the way I saw my world through the camera I trained my grandkids by letting them shoot garbage ,, and now they even see God clearly ,, even if it is at Mount Marys church,. or the Ganesha pandas that Nerjis will shoot in a day or too..
I would go berserk posting GIFS ,, and other shit that I see here on Facebook what beats me you could be as creative with your mobile phone ,,
if you only put your heart to it ,,
Now I will search for a picture to add fuel to fire
Hooked yes ,, blog line and sinker
