The Curse of the Hijra

The Curse of the Hijra, originally uploaded by firoze shakir photographerno1.

the curse
of the hijra
is a blessing
in disguise
of a pain
hidden
in her eyes
broken wings
touching god
she fall
she cries
again she
gets up
tries
her fate
fucked
as a loaded
dice
hijdas
are human
they pay a price
as a drop
of a tear dries
touching
the feet of god
in the skies

Maine Khuda Ko Dhoonda

Maine Khuda Ko Dhoonda, originally uploaded by firoze shakir photographerno1.

maine khuda
ko dhoonda
admi me mila
maine admi ko
dhoonda
hijde main mila
murjhaya hua
khudaiee main khila

Agar Main Hijra Na Hoti

Agar Main Hijra Na Hoti, originally uploaded by firoze shakir photographerno1.

toh kya hoti
paraye
palang
par
kyon soti
apne palang
par kyon roti
meri ankh
se churaya
hua
ek moti
kyon khoti

Main Hijra Toh Nahi

Main Hijra Toh Nahi, originally uploaded by firoze shakir photographerno1.

jab se dekha
maine tujhko
main hijra ban gayi

Being A Hijra is One Fucked Head Ache

Being A Hijra is One Fucked Head Ache, originally uploaded by firoze shakir photographerno1.

i became
what
i wanted to be
for my inner
souls sake
i needed a break
i became a hijra
was it a mistake
give and take
but i realized
being a hijra
is one fucked
head ache
not for me
but
for others
who think
i am fake
if they could
like a witch
burn
me at the stake
and i am
not even poisonous
not even a snake
those that
take my ass
fuck my soul
keep me awake
a hijra only man
no god could make

Why Some Hijras get Upset When I Shoot Their Pictures

Why Some Hijras get Upset When I Shoot Their Pictures, originally uploaded by firoze shakir photographerno1.

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Hijras may like photographers the kind you see dressed in normal clothes like media photographers , they may even spare the precocious woman photographer who shoots hijras to keep up with the Shakirs and the Jones.


But invariably in spite of being notoriously infamous shooting hijras for some time I am , still castigated by hijras who dont want me to shoot them , one because of my sartorial signature I look like a Tantric and the hijra even in modern times feels I will steal her soul.

One Hijra called me a Behrupiya ..a person in Disguise and an agent of a society that hates hijras , one hijra at this event Chalisva of Ragini Naik at Park Site Vikhroli picked up a burning log from the fireplace to break open my skull.. simply she did not like nosy photographers shooting a private moment and I was a guest of Heena Hijra my patron from the red light area of Peela House.


So shooting hijras is not as easy as it might seem , I have gone through stiff opposition , fights and shot the quintessential angst of the hijras.


I climbed the Malangad mountains bare feet both ways to shoot the Hijras at Haji Malang.

Only one person called me to her birthday party Simran dancer transgender but because I post all pictures on the net , at Flickr and at my Hijda Eunuch blogs on Word Press I have stopped getting invitations .

I shoot hijras differently I shoot them as fleeting wordless poems provided you read them as poems too.

I leave my work rush to Ajmer for the Urus and I am invariably broke , I rough it out change various trains walk barefeet , to feel the pain of a drama of life and I shoot the hijras at Moti Katla.

So my tryst of Hijras that began at Matunga road shooting the prostitute hijras soliciting on the road I have finally reached this far in hijra photography.

I shot the Hijras at Peela House the dangerous red light area of Mumbai , not once but many times barefeet cursed by the whores and the pimps ..yes I live on the edge shooting hijras this is my high my Nasha whatever you call it.

And though I have a Hijra Guru Laxmi Narayan Tripathi I have not made use of her name or her contacts , I shot the Hijra Gully No 1 at Kamatipura too.

One place I could shoot hijras without any problem is Delhi , because of my relationship with Gopal Haji Naik and Babita Hijra , they invited me several times but I could not leave my work..I dont earn through photography I dont have any other source of income.

My only regret as a blogger who shoots Hijras is not being able to make it to Koovagam. I had a French photographer who wanted me to accompany him but I politely refused .

So Koovagam remains unseen by the Barefeet Hijra Shooting Blogger of Mumbai..

I am more at ease shooting the beggar hijras and the hijra performers that dance at weddings in the slums.


I have also shot Hijra Rafaee , Hijra Bawas .

And my grand daughter Marziya two years old has no problem or fear of the hijras.. she shoots them as efficiently with her eyes as I shoot them with my camera.

I have also shot Hijra impostors too..

And now I am hoping somebody comes forward to help me publish my hijra pictures poems and blogs..

They Fuck Hijdas Dont They !

They Fuck Hijdas Dont They !, originally uploaded by firoze shakir photographerno1.

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racial profiling
hate for the hijdas
their chosen path
of getting even
with the rebels
of society they say
they fuck hijdas
dont they
under the garb
of a criminal law
given
by the British
vampire
as parting gift
for our
Independence Day
article 377
that sodomizes
the soul of humanity
in every way
treated as
an untouchable
a diseased person
a stigma a taboo
till this day
the hijda
society's scapegoat
to be destroyed
in every way
the hijra carries
the burden of his guilt
victim and the prey
a puppet on a string
till his dying day